Well it’s been a little while since I did a thesis talk post. This is a super short update, but you’ll understand why as you read it.
I’ve barely done anything since my last update. I lost all motivation for my thesis (and everything else) in the last week of May. At the time, I talked about how I was struggling with my anxiety, depression and feeling overwhelmed. I’m going to be honest with you all—I gave up on myself. My mind went some very dark places, and nothing seemed worth living for.
The good news is, I finally can feel my desire to live coming back to me. Some of this comes from the feeling that I’m finally settling in at my new place and new job, and some of it comes from some other lifestyle changes. A lot of it comes from my friends and all the lovely messages they’ve sent me over the past few weeks. Most of it though comes from inside myself. I’ve been very lost, and while I don’t think I’m out of that yet—I’m getting there.
A New Due Date
I landed myself in hospital again in August with my diabetes, and we’ve decided it comes down to stress. So I applied for special consideration, and got my thesis due date pushed back to February. I can’t put into words how much stress that took off my shoulders. I still haven’t done a whole lot of work, but I can feel my motivation coming back. I’ve been getting back to my readings that I’ve been ignoring and I feel good.
So that’s all I really have to say this time. I’m hoping I can keep this momentum up and that I will keep feeling significantly better than I have been so far this year. I hope you’re all doing super well!